it was my last RT today.
huge weight off my shoulders. its amazing, i don’t think i realized how stressed i was! i am emotionally drained! but now its over i can start moving on with my life, fuck you cancer, i am gonna be fine. and hope never to meet you again!
thanks my friends and my family for the amazing love and support.
log into my just giving page to see the next step!!
https://www.justgiving.com/beatricesantell/
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two more,RT and its over….
Radio therapy has been sooooo Boring, wow the place i go is lovely and the staff are just great, but its still a hour there and a house back for a 10 minute appointment!
side effects are not so hot, yucky,
and sore skin, my poor nipple! they say the side effects will be better
added a picture of me in the machine s you guys can see!
its amazing, i actually feel like its over, i beat cancer. i told it to go away and it did! my friends a nd family i will owe you forever. your support has been so brilliant.
had my portocath removed yesterday, bit sore but ok.
not much left now, a few weeks off RT which is going well, slight soreness on my boobs…
will be setting up my just giving page soon
just got home after my 3rd radiation therapy treatment.
after seeing a few doctors and hospitals and being told there is a waiting list (NHS) for treatment, my amazing new doctor finds me the sandford medical center, which is a amazing private cancer treatment center (opened a month ago) the place is stunning, and the staff lovely and YES no wait time! they understood that i NEED to go to Ibiza in october and need my treatment to be over! so they come in on the weekend!! and we started treatment this week all so i will be finished in time to go on vacation! now that is what we have private insurance for!!!
RT is proving to be boring, not horrible, just boring! you lie on a metal bed with your arms above your head and can’t move for 20 mins while breathing into a machine and holding your breath periodically while they give the treatment! (boring!) they did tell me i have amazing lungs!! the breathing is so you inflate your lungs and push your heart out of the way of the radiation. Side effects… there are some, but i won’t know which ones and how badly i will get them yet. they accumulate so will not have any for a few more sessions!
i will let you know when anything changes!!! only a few more weeks and its so nearly over!!
x
CHEMO IS OVER
such a relief, its so odd, i don’t think you know how horrid something is till its over, keeping your head high and getting thru is so important you don’t notice some of the side effects. my headache (had it for months) is nearly gone! by hips and shoulders are only a little sore, and the fog in my brain is starting to clear.
my goodness that was a tough few months! thank you for all the love and support, its been so much esker knowing i have the love and support of such good people. i could never have felt with this in the way i did, or laughed thru it, or partied thru it (you know who you are!) with out you. and my family. WHAT ROCKS. i ask for nothing, you are the best family ever.
anyway, enough silly talk, you might start to think i am finally getting emotional about all this!!!
we finished chemo and my feet are still numb, but hope most of the feeling will come back, i have a feeling my 5 inch heels are being demoted to 3 inch!!
NEXT STAGE
radiation! i met with a new oncologist and will start a 5 week plan of radiation. i hope to start in the next few weeks.
will write more soon, sorry u have not, but was on holiday!!!
x
had round 7 yesterday,
joined in the day by lovely Aimee Stebbing, my dear brother, dan and my darling Perdita who always makes me happy. mum was being amazing and looking after the kids who had the best time ever!
it was a hard one. not sure why but half way thru started to feel like shit. took a nap and was a bit better… i was in forever as they had problems with the blood machines and can’t start till all the blood work is done.
thye had to lower my dose again as my felt are still getting so numb, (permanent side effect!) lets hope they don’t get worse.
in bed feeling like poo today, kids went t tennis camp so at least the house is cool and quiet.
had a fun bog monday with Aimee and Justin, my bro and a old friend Michelle. dinner and drinks and then a little gay clubbing for a boogie to finish it off!!
i will put up a pic.
have to sign off as exhausted but will put up more later.
xxxxx
sorry i have not updated in a while, this one was not that fun. took a good week to feel better and then when i finally did of course i have been so busy rushing around.
toes are still numb, and fingers a little tingly, but now i feel ok.
off to Mallorca with the family tomorrow for a week so no chemo for a extra week WOOHOO! will put some pics up from holiday and then give you all a update next week when home.
x
this is so not fun!
had a lovely big monday with a whole group of friends, and then chemo yesterday.
my toes are going numb and i have horrid stomach cramps, and feel exhausted… i thought this type would be easier but its not.
not much to write now, but will add more later.
xx
pictures from chemo, my darling Claudia was there too but missed the pic
had 5/5 yesterday so feeling great that i am half way thru. feeling very tired though!
BIG MONDAY was fun, saw a very old friend and some of my regulars and we had a great time forgetting about cancer and having a good time.
i am on knew Chemotherapy now its called paclitaxel, the side effects are different so boring waiting for new things to happen, now i am just super tired, almost like jelly! and i am getting tunny cramps. most people get bone ache and joint pain so i am hoping not me! this is the big hair loss treatment too so waiting on that to happen then buzzzzzzzzz all the rest must go.
i have had fun with the new looks!
BIG NEWS is today i get to go choose my new puppy… he is 6 weeks old so very excited to see and choose him.
will add some pictures and fill in more later.
first is me and barb at chemo, barb has been there every treatment. LOVE YOU
then MA and i on big monday at a fashion party she kindly took me too.
this is our new puppy… he is coming home with us in a week…. been in bed all day but managed to get it together to gland choose him out of the litter of 10! he actually chose us!